Sunday School this morning and then Big Church. Ha, I sound like a child but I suppose that's still the way I think in my head. Everybody was a bit too cheerful and all touchy feely. Or maybe they weren't too much but I was too little?

I sat around all afternoon, trying to read STephen King but not really succeeding. My husband flipped the channels until I thought I'd go mad. Then one of his buddies came over and I didn't mind at all cause it got him out of the house for awhile since they went outside and picked around on their guitars and tried to prove each knows everything there is to know about anything.

The game this morning was awful. We got there early and then it was still an hour late getting started. And everything completely disorganised and crazy. I've never seen it so bad.

Afterwards we visited Chili's but everybody was in such a grumpy mood by then. I ordered tilapia with some kind of spicy sauce, can't think of the name of it but it was very good and of couse I had to add a few grilled shrimp.

Got home and moped around the rest of the day, falling asleep if I got too still. It was a shame to waste the afternoon but I suppose I was just tired. A friend called and said she couldn't go to work next week, she has pneumonia and was lucky the doctor didn't stick her butt in the hospital. She's telling me this as she's hacking and coughing and I ask, are you still smoking? Yes, she says but has cut down but is too nervous to completely quit.

My aunt, my very old great-aunt who lives on the east coast, called while we were still gone today and I haven't called her back. I know I should but just couldn't, maybe tomorrow.

It was a stormy Friday in more ways than one. And being Friday I had a million errands to run after work, dodging streets closed because of flooding or downed power lines. I should have just gone home but I had to get some money put in the bank and we were also extremely scarce of food in the fridge.

I had hopes of a quiet night watching TV...Star Wars!...but it wasn't to be. Hey, when's Moonlight coming back on? Just when I get attached to something it gets jerked off the air. I did see Canterbury's Law again. EXCELLENT show. I've never been a big fan of Juliana Margulies (hopefully that last name's spelled correctly) but I've become an admirer since watching this show. And the sub-plot of her lost child is really interesting and I'm wondering if it'll ever be resolved. I've heard the show hasn't been picked up for fall yet. That's about right, find something I like and it disappears.

We have to be at an out-of-town game in the morning by 8:30, no sleeping late for me. I've been having some really weird dreams the past week or so. Unsettling ones, some about people I know (but don't necessarily want to dream about) and some about people and places I don't know at all. Too bad I've lost my knack for writing or I could be turning the mess into stories.

The words just won't come for me today as they have many other days. My mind is chugging along at a pace a little too swift for comfort, touching here and there and leaving me mired in indecision.

Work was sad. My best friend there came in to pack her last things. I feel alone now, not trusting anyone else. They drove her out, the supervisor and some of the others, because she didn't fit in, though there will never be any proof for that besides the just knowing that they did.

I should be sleeping already. Last night I slept the whole night through, only the second time of doing that in the past year. I felt rested in a way but odd too with nothing to mark the passing of the hours, no looking at the clock, no bathroom stumbles, no listening to husband's funny breathing. Just silence and a feeling of too much time passing and me unaware of things.